Robert, I am sure you saw my post in my thread, somewhat related to this...I am still struggling very much. Before I go into that further, let me say this comment, although even without it, I was convinced you are who you say you are, but thank you so much for this, you have no idea what it means to me. I'm not one of your moderators but I am also immoderate at times. LOL. I am in good company, probably don't deserve to be here, but I have tears streaming down my face right now.
I can't help but wish for my Mom to pass away. Her quality of life is gone. She sits in front of the TV, either in her bed or on in her chair, but she doesn't leave her room. I find myself in a very difficult sea of emotions. Sadness that my Mom is dying, hoping she goes, because of her suffering, and also, I admit, hoping it will be sooner rather than later so I can close this chapter of my life as well, and leave my other two brothers behind. These dealings I have to have with them bring up too much baggage, reminding me of things I have NOT forgotten, but things I have not brought to mind in a long time.
I need this place more than ever, and I am very well aware, it will be taken from us. Probably sooner than later, but I cling to this place because I feel i belong here, and I love these brothers and sister I have met here, and it is like nothing I have ever felt my whole life growing up as one of Jehovah's Witnesses. I also am well aware Satan is at our throats, and I know I am particularly vulnerable at this time, but I am also aware of that fact, so that gives me some protection.
Any way, this and your other comments display your humility, and I thank you for that, and I am quite aware I have most likely tried your patience on occasion as well.
Thanks also to everyone else for your loving and kind comments...although this thread had very little to do with me, besides me butting in, thank you
@Ms_ladyblue for making this thread. You brought us together, something I tried to do, but you succeeded. Bravo my sister, and I love you!
Oh, and I see you lurking
@BillyRay welcome back...I for one have missed you!