I have mentioned this in the past on the main site briefly but nowhere else. There are two phobias that aren't in the conventional realm of phobias. I'm sure many of you may have had of phobias such as arachnophobia (fear of spiders), thalassophobia (fear of deep bodies of water), ophidiophobia (fear of snakes), acrophobia (fear of heights), etc. These phobias I am mentioning are more on the existential side where it's in the mind rather than something in the external world around you. The first one is cherophobia (fear of happiness/joy). There's even a wiki page on the matter: Aversion to happiness. The other is apeirophobia (fear/dread of eternity/infinity). There really isn't much info on the subject on the matter save one webpage I found: APEIROPHOBIA – OBSERVATIONS/ HYPOTHESIS/THEORY. Unfortunately, I have been suffering from these long before I learned the Truth & it has stifled me in faith at times. When I was studying my teacher was perplexed why I seldom mention what my hopes are for the new earth/new system of things/new age as well as mentioning the new system of things at all. Many of the friends noticed this over the years & wondered why. I never really talked about it except indirectly mentioning it to the elders in a shepherding call (before the global congregation merge). They didn't really know what to say since I suppose they never heard of anyone being afraid of the new system or shall I say eternal life itself. I hate being like this since it fills my with rage & despair to the point of borderline madness which brings along an existential crisis into the fray. Am I going crazy or is it something else?