I was very much pimi, but in my own rebellious way! For instance, I would always stand up for CSA in the org, to elders as well, and tell them how ridiculous their policy of "shh.. don't say anything to the authorities, think of the reproach it would bring on Jehovah's name" is. I would counteract their argument with "and what about the reproach it brings on Jehovah's name by NOT reporting it to the authorities?" Needless to say with my attitude in this matter and in many other areas too, I wasn't very loved or appreciated by the elders in general, and I experienced many batterings over many years, but I had 4 kids and I was determined to get them into Jehovah's new world so I just endured, sometimes, very extreme treatment from the elders. When we did the Isaiah books in the book study Jehovah opened my eyes a little and I began to understand that the Watchtower is being used by Jehovah to spread the good news and make his name known, but that it was also being used by Satan, and I began to act in a more "wise as a serpent but as innocent as a dove" manner, most of the time, but not ALL of the time

so I was already half awake when 2020 arrived.. and then I was totally and utterly confused again for 2yrs, until I stumbled upon this site and read Robert's book