Do, do, do, do more, then more. Never gonna earn it. Jehovah sees the heart. All the "doing" in the world is wasted if the l love isn't there.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not directing this at you I'm directing it at me.
I'm trying to work on me, this is what I feel I'm being led to do. The fruits that I'm seeking to cultivate are the fruitages of Jehovah's Holy Spirit.
Sitting at the Hall being taught lies and half truths, listening to the same talk week after week with just a slight change of wording, with a group of people that I've never seen the love from and am now seeing idolatry and other disgusting things among, ummm no, I don't see how that gets my heart condition to where it should be. But that's me. Everybody has to do what they believe they're being led to do.
Patricia, I really appreciate the sincerity and humility in your comment. And honestly, I agree with the core point you’re making — without love, all the “doing” in the world means nothing. Paul said exactly that at 1 Corinthians 13:1-3.
I also think it’s good that you’re focusing on the fruitage of the spirit. In the end, that is what Jehovah is looking for, not a performance or a checklist.
At the same time, one thing I’ve been reflecting on is that the fruitage of the spirit is often developed most deeply in difficult or imperfect environments, not ideal ones. Patience, self-control, mildness, endurance, even love itself — those qualities usually only become visible when there is something uncomfortable to endure.
When we consider the situation of faithful christians in the first century, there is a tendency to read the scriptures as if they were written under the same circumstances, when in reality there were two very different periods:
Before 70 CE — while the Jewish system and temple still existed.
After 70 CE — after the destruction of Jerusalem and the complete end of that system.
Before 70 CE, faithful Christians were in a situation very similar to what many of us may experience today. The Jewish system was already corrupt, dominated by religious leaders who rejected truth, persecuted Christ’s followers, and imposed heavy traditions. Yet Christians did not immediately disappear into isolation.
They balanced two things: gathering privately with fellow believers in homes, while still being present in the broader religious environment of the nation.
Acts repeatedly shows Christians in the temple and synagogues: Acts 2:46 says they were “continually in the temple.” Paul regularly entered synagogues to reason from the Scriptures.
This is important because it shows that enduring within an imperfect and even hostile environment was part of Christian life.
Imagine the emotional pressure: A Christian entering a synagogue might hear prayers from men who rejected Christ, teachings mixed with blindness and tradition, and conversations condemning followers of Jesus as deceivers or apostates. Some sitting there may even have approved Stephen’s execution. Yet many Christians continued moving within that environment for a time because the separation had not yet fully occurred and because Jehovah’s purpose was still unfolding progressively. That required enormous restraint and endurance.
They had to learn when to speak, when to remain silent, when to endure, when to flee, and when Jehovah’s timing had actually arrived. That is why Jesus told them to be “cautious as serpents and innocent as doves.” A Christian could not survive emotionally or spiritually by reacting impulsively to every hypocrisy or provocation.
In some ways, many of us today may feel a similar tension attending meetings:
. Surrounded by people strongly attached to an organization
. Aware of teachings we know are incorrect
. Conscious that questioning certain interpretation of prophesies could immediately bring suspicion.
. Knowing we may be labeled rebellious, weak, or apostate.
. Realizing that open disagreement could lead to disfellowshipping.
That environment can feel psychologically exhausting. But the important question becomes:
What does Jehovah expect during this period?
The prophets give a remarkable pattern. Jeremiah lived among corrupt worshippers. Habakkuk watched injustice inside God’s own people. None had a clean spiritual environment. Their faithfulness was shown not by escaping discomfort immediately, but by remaining loyal to Jehovah while enduring confusion, opposition, and waiting for His timing.
That does not mean approving corruption or pretending falsehood is truth. The first Christians certainly did not approve the hypocrisy of the Pharisees. But neither did they run ahead of Jehovah’s timetable.
There is also something refining about enduring this situation. When we attend despite receiving little recognition, little trust, little approval, and perhaps even suspicion, the motivation gradually changes. Service stops being about social validation and becomes more about Jehovah seeing the heart.
That may be part of the deeper training involved: learning to remain faithful even when misunderstood, unseen, or judged unfairly by fellow worshippers.
And perhaps that is why endurance is emphasized so strongly in prophecy. Not merely endurance against the world, but endurance within difficult spiritual circumstances among God’s own people before final judgment arrives.