Thank you. I am over it.
There is a big advantage of living off grid in a rural area. My phobias are gone! My health has improved and I am physically stronger(for obvious reasons). Because I guess I am closer to nature, and not in a crowded city(last place was Vancouver). The phobia part was a surprise, because I had it for decades. I wonder how many of the society's problems are due to big city living?
Also big part of the depression was that I was 36 when I moved out of my parents place. I know it's my fault, but they were also the type which can be described as long-suffering and because of the times they grew up in like most baby boomers they think their kids need to be protected against everything. If you believe your kid shouldn't do anything they complain about or find difficult, you need to wake up. Those parents aren't showing love, rather eventual, and excruciatingly slow death for their children. Imagine at the end when they are in their 50's after their parents are dead and they face Jesus? "What have you done?" "Ummm, absolutely nothing".
I still have problems but even though I have to take care of myself I am much better at motivating myself. I can tell you the problems are especially serious with men because they feel lot less need to improve on themselves under the home of their parents. They need that push, they need that hardship. Most of "mental health problems" can be solved with simple solutions such as with me. The pills they gave me to take I stopped because all it did was make me drowsy the whole day(you can't hurt yourself because you are too drowsy to even walk or sometimes to eat!). Also the nurses were busy filing redundant paperwork and had no time to be human with us, when a simple person-to-person talk may all be needed.
Hospitals are for life and death scenarios. All other things it's an unnecessary garbage.
So this part I do not regret. I just wish the whole thing was more attuned to how it's supposed to be.
Last edited:
