Yupyup_yup
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Yesterday I had the exact same conversation with my very pimi wife after the wtLast night after the meeting my wife asked me if I'm still harboring resentment towards the GB (likely prompted by the WT study where they pat themselves on the back for their awesome direction during the scamdemic). I was reluctant to go down that road again because of how these discussions always end up. (Why do I take the bait?) But I caved in and unloaded how I feel yet again. It didn't go "well" in that she is still defending "those poor elderly men who are just trying their best and would never do anything to knowingly mislead us". Although she admits they were wrong for their strongly recommending the injections, she thinks I have resentment issues and that I should forgive and let it go...I'm just "obsessed over vaccines" and can't let it go. It's shameful how I'm acting towards my brothers who work so hard in our behalf. In her estimation, she doesn't know anyone who has proven issues from the vaccine so she's not convinced that it's happening. Yet she refuses to examine any evidence that I would present or to do any research on her own. Just forget about it and be happy.
I bring this up as an example of the mentality of most JW's. They can't fathom that "our brothers, men of God...the FFDS" could be swayed or corrupted to knowingly endanger the lives of Jehovah's people. And the GB consistently reinforces this mentality with articles like yesterday's (propaganda) WT study. It's just evidence that they know there is mistrust brewing and they're desperately trying to stamp it out. And I consider my wife to be one of the more reasonable JW's. She's willing to criticize when she sees the need.
I won't bore you with the details but I tried in vain to support my position. Ultimately I'm just a conspiracy nut who has trust issues. I was asked if I'm having a nervous breakdown. Ugh!
But I will continue to support her in her delusion until we reach a point of acceptance. I have to remember that I was in that same deluded mindset not so long ago.
The point of acceptance will likely arrive when there is so much evidence that they (GB / Gov / manufacturers / health authorities) can no longer hide or when Jehovah brings vengeance and cleans house. My gut tells me that if I hold steady with my conviction, when that time arrives, she will know and accept that my concerns were valid and hopefully that realization will instill enough trust for her to begin to accept "the truth about the truth."
In the meantime It's extremely frustrating to have to maintain the balancing act. I try not to let it affect me to the extent that people notice but I also realize that sighing and groaning are a sign that I'm truly keeping on the watch, and I don't accept the detestable things going on around me or the lies being spread about Jah. Hopefully that equates to a mark on my forehead for survival.
Exactly the same I took the bait too
it's erie scary
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When she's around the brothers it's like she's a shame of not getting vaccinated
She's an amazing wife, I love her so much
It pains me to see how naive she is
I'll add your wife to my prayers about my own
Please wake up