Charming Primrose
Well-known member
I totally understand. For me I HAD to just do it. My heart knew what I wanted & need to do but my mind would just not stop. Just like what your experiencing.I have been thinking a lot about this subject too. I go back and forth ALOT in my mind. Thoughts like "But there is SO MUCH good in the organization. They know the Bible like no one else. They sanctify Jehovah's name, devote more time to spiritual things than any other religion, they promote clean, moral living, they are against war" and the list goes on...
But then I come back to the very same analogy that was used on me regarding still being in Christiandom and eating poison: "Lets say you are eating a candy bar and 80% of the ingredients in the candy bar are good, But 20% is poison. Would you still eat the candy bar?"
This is what I am pondering and praying on myself lately
But ones from the congregation still reach out to me. And it makes me feel bad and guilty because I know their intentions are good but I am not in a place right now to respond other than to ones I am very close with.
I moved to a neighborhood with 2 Witnesses from my hall who live on the same street as me. We have never met in person. Only on Zoom but I do pass them in my car when they are outside and we wave and I wonder what they must think of me.
Its a difficult space for us all.
Lately just been repeating the wise words from the latest podcast.
Seek Jehovah.
Seek Meekness.
Seek Righteousness.
May Jehovah make our paths straight. Proverbs 3:6
Once I sent my letter I felt I could breath. 90% of the pressures I felt are now gone.
With that being said, you need to do what's best for you.
I honestly & wholeheartedly believe that Jehavah has not left me.