Unlike some, I don't believe Jehovah's has an earthly organization. I believe he has servants on earth, but no organization that speaks for him on earth. I faded from the Society back in the early 1990s, and a lot has changed since then. The last few years with them were almost unbearable. I was PIMO for the last 5 years there, in fact when I joined I kept my mind open, NEVER truly giving my ALL to this organization, that's not to say I didn't believe in it, because I initially did. They pointed me to the Bible when I studied, but just because I got baptized didn't mean that it stopped there. I continue my studies and searching for knowledge. I always knew this was an organization run by imperfect men. But as the years went on, I found that these men were manipulative and had one goal and that was to continue the longevity of the organization. Other than the very basics, much of what I learned to be the truth in the early 80s, is now error. I was spiritually stagnant and I couldn't stand being among men in the local congregation who were "lording" it over the friends, flexing their muscles and threatening anyone who stands in their way.
I didn't care for status, for positions or titles. They meant nothing to me. I attended ALL the meetings, I went out in service, pioneering, etc. I wasn't reaching out. I simply did what I felt was the Lord's leading. I saw elders backbiting. Watchtower conductor tried to overthrow the Presiding Overseer, because he wanted to be P.O.
They thought they could entice me by holding a position over my head, then later threaten me with the same position. Whether I'm a servant, an elder, a pioneer or whatever doesn't affect the worship towards my Heavenly Father or following in the footsteps of my elder brother, Jesus.
Years ago, I had Witnesses come to my door, I never told them I was inactive. They came and had discussions with me. Two sisters who came over every Saturday for a month. Then they brought an elder with them, and we went back and forth on certain topics for another 3 weeks or so. They showed up one day and he read to me from the
Reasoning book about how Witnesses are not there to win arguments. He said, "you're convinced you have the Truth and I'm convinced I have the Truth, we won't change each others minds, so what's the sense in continuing these visits?" As I walked them to the door, I was holding my daughter who wasn't even a year old, and I asked him, "so now what? What happens?" He looked at me and with a straight face said, "It doesn't matter how much Truth you have, you could have 99% of the Truth ... BUT! ... if you're not part of Jehovah's earthly organization, you, your wife and daughter will perish at Armageddon!" I shook his hand, thanked him and told him "I'll see you in the Kingdom." Which of course was more than he gave me.
So no, I will never go back, I will NEVER be a part of ANY earthly organization claiming to speak for God. I will NEVER be a part of organized religion. I will walk with my Father Jehovah and my elder brother Jesus. As the old hymn goes:
I'd rather walk in the dark with God
Than go alone in the light;
I'd rather walk by faith with him
Than go alone by sight.
Where He may lead I'll follow,
My trust in him repose;
And ev'ry hour in perfect peace
I'll sing, he knows, he knows;
And ev'ry hour in perfect peace
I'll sing, he knows, he knows.
[Hymns of Millennial Dawn 110]
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